One day I took a walk with me
And thought of the person I have grown to be
I realized at so many points in time, The woman I am
wasn’t what I had imagined I’d be
From taking a stand on things that as a girl didn’t matter to me
To seeing some core beliefs, transform silently
I found love at times from people who I barely know
& Took a step back from some with whom I assumed id grow
I have burned some bridges sometimes with complete apathy
they felt more like a mirage than reality
and then there were some burning issues & fragile equations I held onto with all I had
close enough to even burn my hands
As a girl I thought to every situation there is a right and wrong response but the most important, probably the most beautiful & sometimes not such a beautiful thing I experienced as the woman I’ve grown to be is that somethings will just feel right no matter how wrong on paper they might be and somethings won’t fit irrespective of their universal love and approvals.
Life happens, it spills over & changes form. And as it does that you flow into different moulds and that same soul is a different person in many different forms.
You don’t even realize it till something makes you look back at life and yourself and at this transition. These transitions though, are not seamless and you go through the full ride. You dream, you plan, you hope, you try, you fail, you win, you focus, you digress, you go off track and switch off too only to keep on moving. The direction is not guaranteed but you keep going with some variables that will be with you for a bit and then flee and then you’ll have some constants who never leave.
From the daughter I started out to be to the one today I see
From the mother I thought I’ll be and the one I am currently
The friend, spouse & companion I choose to be
My reactions & responses at times turn out differently
Oh girl, the places you go and things you can be
The girl you were and the woman you will be
is such a mystery
There could be stark contradictions
I agree
In the me that was and the me I will be
But how I love to be more and more of me
And then through this all
there is always the soothing calm called friends and family
My constants who don’t sway
With every person I become along the way
Oh girl, the places you go and things you can be
The girl you were and the woman you will be