Yesterday I was taking my boys to swimming lessons. I picked them up from school like I’ve done every Thursday for the last 3 years. We’ve got a strict routine because the timings are tight.
Yesterday we had a problem.
I have two sons, 8 & 5. In some ways they are incredibly alike, in others, they are chalk and cheese. My eldest is amazing. He is also ‘highly strung’. He’s interested in everything, deeply passionate about life, loves being outdoors in nature, loves being indoors with a book, his guitar, drawing or making things. But he’s also challenging. Sometimes the smallest thing can trigger a screaming tantrum. When he was 2 and a half he had a 40 minute tantrum because the sun was going down. Five and a half years on, and yesterday he had a 10-minute tantrum about sweets.
Part of our Thursday routine is cycling to the pool. I carry the bag and the three sweets they’ve each chosen for the journey. For 15 minutes they cycle and I jog alongside chatting and occasionally popping a sweet into their mouths on the hoof.
Yesterday I forgot the sweets. Left them on the kitchen table as I rushed out and locked the door. I only realised 5 minutes into our journey, too late to turn back. I said sorry to my boys and explained what had happened. At first, logic was at play as my eldest tried to find a solution.
Him — ‘Could we go back?’
Me — ‘Sorry, there’s not enough time.’
Him — ‘Could we buy some sweets on the way?’
Me — ‘Sorry, there’s no shops.’
Him — ‘Could we have them when we got back?’
Me — ‘Just before bedtime — not a good way to get to sleep, no. I’m sorry.’
Then the tantrum happened. Screaming, throwing his bike down. Steadfastly refusing to budge until the sweets appeared. His stubbornness will do him well later in life, but yesterday it wasn’t helpful. Neither was mine — ‘I’m sorry, but there’s nothing we can do about it now, we have to get to swimming. I’ve worked really hard to get us there on time, please calm down and let’s go.’ I called the situation perfectly, from a rational perspective. But us humans are far from rational. My approach was far from perfect. It was, in fact, a massive balls-up. I had simply ignored much of what I’ve learnt over the years.
10 minutes later he was back on his bike cycling along behind me and his younger brother. Still full of rage, but getting past it.
Our relatives have said a number of times that we should think about getting him assessed to see what’s going on. The autistic spectrum has been mentioned a number of times. We aren’t going to do that though. Yes, his behaviour is out of the ordinary, extreme in some cases, but we feel that a label is more for other people’s purposes than his.
The event of yesterday got the better of me. In the evening I was down and circled back to the ‘getting him checked out’ way of thinking. But my amazing wife reminded me that’s not helpful for him. She reminded me of some of the things we’ve learnt as our eldest has grown.
Emotions are signals, connecting to them is crucial
Emotions are responses to our experiences. They trigger chemical changes in our body that prime us in a certain way. When we feel fear our heart rate increases, our breathing becomes shallower and our muscles tense. We’re primed for flight or fight.
If we’re not careful, parents react to the emotion as the problem, instead of connecting with the emotion so they have a sense of security, and then working on the cause of it. Something John Gottman writes about in Raising an Emotionally Intelligent Child. Here’s a great summary of the thinking.
A common trap I fall into is when they accidentally knock something over, like a drink. When they do this, our boys get cross. They’re cross at themselves for having knocked a drink over. If I’m not conscious of what’s going on, I react to their crossness, with impatience. ‘Get up and clean it up quickly, don’t just sit there.’ This just makes things worse. When I’m conscious, I connect to why they’re cross, then get onto sorting it out, things are better.
Connecting to their emotion is important because you’re really saying ‘I’m here for you. You’re more important than the situation. So when it’s a drink spillage I try and say something like. ‘I hear you, I know you’re angry/frustrated/upset/disappointed etc. I can see how knocking over that drink made you feel that way. I feel the same too when I knock something over. It’s OK.’ Not doing this means leaving them to work out their own emotions, not a great parental thing to do.
Emotional education is critical
Without the ability to name something, it is very difficult, if not impossible to recognise it and deal with it. This is one of the biggest jobs for parents in our children’s early years and is why it’s important to connect to our kids about their emotions when they’re feeling them. Helping them label their feelings gives them a way to recognise them and start the process of choosing how to behave in reaction to them.
The Yale Center for Emotional Intelligence does lots in this area. Their studies show that kids with a more granular understanding of their emotions do better in life — better grades, lower levels of substance abuse etc.
It turns out there are lots of emotions that exist inside us humans that, in English, we just don’t have words for. There’s a great list of them here, but here are a few of my favourites:
- Desbundar (Portuguese) — to shed one’s inhibitions in having fun
- Tarab (Arabic) — a musically induced state of ecstasy or enchantment (I get much less of this now I’ve got kids)
- Desenrascanço (Portuguese) — to artfully disentangle oneself from a troublesome situation (something I need to do more of!)
Labelling is bad
‘You’re a people pleaser’an A-Level psychology teacher once said to me. I remember it to this day. I used to have a tough time saying no to people, I still do in fact, but I’m a LOT better than I was. The teacher’s comment was a flippant one looking back, it was said in passing not with intent, but it stuck.
Small comments can have lifelong implications. It’s the whole fixed mindset v.s growth mindset stuff. If I believe I’m not good at something I won’t try and improve and therefore I won’t get better. That’s why, in our family, we try to talk about their behaviour, not their person when it comes to tantrums and doing the wrong thing.
You’re unkind vs. that was an unkind thing to do.
If you want to get technical about it, Carol Dweck if fixed and growth mindset fame, wrote about this back in 1999 in Self-theories: Their Role in Motivation, Personality, and Development (chapter 11, you can read it on Google Books).
In the end we got the pool and it was all fine. My son apologised, as did I and together we talked about what we could do differently to make sure the sweets don’t get forgotten next time. Fingers crossed!
Originally published at www.beingdads.com which documents the search for what it means to be a great dad by an ex-angry dad.
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