I am going through an extremely rough time emotionally and mentally. I currently have a 7 month old baby girl and a 2 (almost 3) year old. I am a stay at home mom. Being a stay at home mom is extremely tough. I hear all the time “oh you’re so lucky”, “when do you plan to work again”, “ I don’t know how you do it”..let me just say it’s not even remotely that simple. Losing yourself to pregnancy is the first part, then you lose the body you once knew when baby arrives, then the you as you knew you is flipped upside down and turned inside out. Are my children my biggest blessing? Absolutely. Do I love them with all my heart? Absolutely. Do I miss me? Do I wish I knew who I was? Do I want people to see me for me, more then a mom? Answer to all is yes. Being a mother is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Juggling sanity, self care, caring for my children, loving my children, loving myself, having a functioning, healthy relationship, it’s all more then I ever realized. Guilt is an understatement. I envy the strong women. The beautiful women, the women who love themselves and have the confidence to know they deserve everything. I just want to be that woman, that mom. To all the moms out there: give yourself a break. Know your worth, show your love, shine your light, for the person you are for you and for your children is the most important thing ❤️ now to take my own advice.
Melissa