Let’s play Wake Believe.

It’s like Make Believe, for social media loving adults.

I want you to pretend that your favorite social media platform is an actual person. 

Yes, say hello to Miss Insta Gram, the actual human being.

Now I want you to believe that over the past few years, you and Insta have literally become attached at the hand and do everything together. And now this is show and tell, and I want you to describe your friend Insta to me.

So is Insta your fun girlfriend that you feel almost addicted to, who leaves you feeling inspired and says the funniest things?

Or is Insta your total frenemy, who immediately starts talking shit about other people to you and in turn leaves you feeling empty after you two hang out?

Is Insta the perfect Varsity Blues head cheerleader that always looks flawless with #nofilter (even thought you know she uses one) but still in turn makes you feel like Shrek when you two walk hand in hand down the street?

Or is your gal pal Insta your closest confident, the one who gives you all the time you need to vent and just sits there and listens without any judgement?

You know, whatever the friendship, the harsh truth is your girl Insta is actually just how you feel, in digital form. 

Instagram is a mirror of who you are and how you currently choose to position yourself in the world. 


The best part… is that YOU are in control of this friendship because this whole digital world is completely MADE UP and designed by YOU!

You see, I’ve been in my Bali Happy Place for the past four weeks… but if you follow me, you would never have known that.

Even though it’s my fourth time here, it also felt like my maiden voyage… for when I arrived, I realized if I wanted to be happy in this place, I would need to heal a very toxic relationship I have with my phone… 

I would have to heal the relationship with my girl Instagram.
After seven years of working as a digital entrepreneur, I had burned out of my Instagram business and my online “life” had begun to make me feel like a fraud. (#VarsityBlues) It was here, in this Bali Insta paradise, when I realized that this perfect Insta backdrop was not going to heal the bad habits I had developed with my hands and Instagram. 

So I began right at that moment to take a big conscious step back.
See, as an early adapter to social media and blogging, I became very well versed in sharing… well, everything. While I am incredibly thankful that Instagram stories weren’t available during my college frat partying days, I did join “The Facebook” as a senior at the University of New Hampshire in November of 2004.

Looking back, I am also grateful to have been able to consciously enter social media fifteen years ago, at 21 years old, during a stage and age where I was old enough to know better and still young enough to make a few mistakes.

But today, we live in a digital world where consciousness and social media are not hand in hand. I can’t assume that we just “know better” and I wholeheartedly take responsibility that I have made more than a couple of mistakes, especially on the “newer” platforms of Instagram and Instagram stories.

Let me also state for the record (wow this is beginning to sound so formal!) that I am oh so thankful for all Social Media and have made a thriving business over the past eight years using the free (yes, FREE!) platforms. Hell, I write this from Bali after working my tail off by creating a business that capitalizes off of Instagram, so I do know that much good and abundance can come out of using these tool as one to connect.

But see, that’s the thing… Instagram is a tool… and like a hammer, it can be very helpful when you want to put some photos up… but when used unconsciously, Instagram is that same hammer that has the ability to leave a major head injury.

Let’s go deep here and authentically connect as I ask you a very personal question about an intimate connection…So what is your relationship with your phone and your girl Insta Gram? And even more important, because if you’re anything like me and you love/loathe it, how can you start right now and begin to heal the friendship? Here are my three steps.



Just for today…When you find yourself scrolling on Instagram…Ask yourself…

1. Why am I on Instagram?

Take a moment and see how you’re feeling while you’re scrolling. Is the content fueling or draining you? Are you digesting this content on the toilet? Are you on this app to procrastinate for what you really need to be doing? Is Instagram making you feel lonely? Are those constant happy posts triggering your deep unhappiness? Are those engagement ring pix making you feel less than with your current nonexistent relationship status? Did that umpteenth baby photo make you anxious about how your biological clock is ticking? (#askingforafriend)

STOP. For just one minute, stop where you are, and start to recognize that you are completely in control of what you consume … and if you’ve oversaturated yourself with so many accounts to the point where you don’t know who YOU are anymore?
Well congratulations, my friend.This is a turning point. So go deeper and ask yourself another big question…

2. Is anything sacred to me?

Start pondering what, in your life right now, do you hold sacred. Is it your kids faces? Your relationship? Your time in bed at night? Your daily runs? Your morning ritual? Your hard earned vacations? (I so often documented my tropical island vacay life for everyone else and now realize I never, just for one day, tried to live my vacation phone free.) And now… 

3. Are there any sacred moments I now want to hold myself accountable for from NOT documenting all the time?

And hey, I’m not saying go cold turkey on Thanksgiving and not take any photos of the grandkids and all that family, feast and fun… I’m saying get conscious about how often you’re pulling your phone out, especially during the holidays… Especially when you have such valuable, yet limited, time to connect offline with those you love.



If you start with basic AWARENESS, you can begin to create PHONE BOUNDARIES. Welcome to the foundation of this healing process. Begin by having the courage to view your Screen Time and feel in your body if the number you see makes you clap, cringe or cry. Whatever that energy in motion is, it’s the first step to phone consciousness. Once you know which apps you are spending excess time on, (and you can’t un-know those numbers!) you can begin to understand where and if you need to change your digital app habits.

I wholeheartedly recommend setting up the Instagram Time Limit to a half hour per day… Use it like a kid at recess. Think of it as your free time to run wild and see what 30 minutes of being social on social media looks like to you on this new daily basis. If you need to get out content on Instagram for your business, think of Instagram Time Limit as the most amazing tool to help you with a much needed 30-minute self imposed deadline.

REMEMBER: You are the captain of your Instagram ship, and you can set your journey’s length to any amount you desire. Just be conscious of how long you want to be out to digital sea for.



My breakthrough was realizing my brain was “out of storage” from too much news and newsfeeds. I became aware that so much of my social media burnout was from unconsciously consuming too many other people’s content. I opened up Instagram constantly, to the point where my pointer finger already touched the app before my brain knew what I was doing. By the fall, the overconsumption began to stunt my own creativity.I was completely overnetworked, overfriended, and overfollowing. The result was that I had developed a malnourished sense of self. The cure? It was not deserted beaches or Bali, (but it sounded like a nice start!) 

The medicine is conscious TIME and SPACE away from my phone, especially from posting and consuming all the time.What needed to change was not Instagram, my job, my network or my business that I had spent a decade passionately building. It was that I needed to change. I needed to shift my perspective from looking down at my phone all the time to looking out in to this great world again. It was out there, in the messy world that I finally got back to a liberated me again.So where can you begin right now? (After you have checked out your screen time of course!) 

TAKE A WALK WITHOUT YOUR PHONE Just start where you are and begin with a solid stroll outside. No headphones, no podcasts, no music… just you and the sound of your feet hitting the ground and the feel of your eyes wide open

GET FAMILIAR WITH THE MUTE FUNCTION Further your conscious journey on Instagram by muting 5 accounts that trigger you. (Yes, MUTE is the most amazing starter before the “unfollow” button)

PICK A WEEKEND TO GET QUIET Look at your calendar and figure out your next calm “weekend” (or two days off) is and commit to trying to be 100% phone free during that 48 hours. Pencil it in as something to look forward to.

AND ON THE MOST BASIC LEVEL… For the love of God and all things holy, turn off all unnecessary Instagram notifications (and yes, admit it… most are completely unnecessary.) 

If you’re still here… and hot damn, am I proud of you and glad you are… I’d like to finish by asking you to begin having a conscious friendship with your girl Insta Gram. And while you’re at it… take this fresh start and go back to that golden rule and begin to treat Insta the way you want to be treated. Stop using Insta as your mental garbage can to dump all your trashy, viscous thoughts in. Don’t hide behind Insta to write careless comments that you don’t want to be held accountable for, or to start mean spirited direct message threads that you would never say to someone’s face in real life. Don’t waste Insta’s time and scroll her endlessly for hours with no intention of doing anything on her because you’re just avoiding hanging out with yourself.

Hell, Insta just wants you to be happy, too!

You see, a subtle shift happened for me while I was taking time away… I checked in on my girl Insta once and awhile and realized how much I missed connecting with all my other friends and followers. I remembered why I started hanging out with with the old Instagram… because I truly do love sharing my life and I absolutely thrive off of seeing what’s going on in other peoples lives and showing insta love through likes and DM’s for all their big and small milestones…. just like they do for me!

So for the first time in six years, I honored this shift by changing my Insta handle from where I live to who I am. 

Because hey, I didn’t just write this for my friends…. I wrote this to heal the relationship between me and my girl @HollyblACKbook