Nearly three years ago, I became a weekly radio show host. I didn’t have a polished business plan meticulously outlining the vision, strategy, benefits, or risks. I just had a feeling that it would be good for me and thankfully I listened to that inner voice. I’d done some public speaking engagements for my day job, and I am equal parts Mexican and Portuguese with the gift of gab. So I just figured how hard could it really be?

I don’t have millions of listeners, and I’ve had a bumpy road, but it has blossomed into one of the best things I’ve ever done in my life. I’ve learned so much about live radio, met so many inspiring people and more importantly I have learned so much about myself and discovered my authentic voice. I decided to write about my experience because I hope that by sharing my story, you too might be encouraged to listen to your inner voice and explore new endeavors that will lead you to self-discovery and ultimately joy!

So this is how it all began. I was helping a friend with her new weekly radio show. I was in full marketing consultant mode discussing her strategy when I said, “maybe I should start a show too?” My friend said, “that might be good, let me think about it.”

I translated that to, a kind no and I had no idea why I’d even mentioned it. What was I thinking?

Well, a few weeks later my friend called and said she spoke to the station owner and he was interested, and a month later I was a radio host for a live 55-minute weekly show! My initial excitement immediately vanished and was replaced with immense fear. What had I done?

My husband got my home studio (or more specifically, my kitchen table) ready for my live radio debut. He found me all of the coolest equipment, and I contributed a picture of my mother, the inspiration for me to become, Molé Mama! I lit a candle to perfect my creative space, took a deep breath, and checked my support system (husband, cool as a cucumber in case something went wrong with the electronics…or me).

My show notes were neatly organized in PowerPoint slides, and my laptop was sprinkled with stickies reminding me to smile and speak slowly. I was ready, or so I thought. During those first terrifying shows my husband sat at the end of the table and would hold up large cards with inspiring phrases, suggestions on where to take the conversation, and he was my biggest cheerleader.

I quickly found that sitting in a room by yourself, speaking into radio-land and trying to find something meaningful to say every week was proving to be the most terrifying thing I’ve ever tried. I would spend 20 hours creating content for a 55-minute show only to burn through it all in the first 15 minutes. Fifty-five minutes seemed like a lifetime.

My heart would be racing out of control with panic as my producer whispered in my headphones suggestions of things to talk about when he sensed I’d run out of content. And while telling stories about cooking with my mama in her final months and how we both came to grips with her imminent departure was delightful, the prep and the intensity of it, well… I wanted to quit. Thankfully my husband was persistent and managed to get me to commit to putting in my best effort for 6 months. He also gave me a graceful exit by explaining that if at the end of that time I still felt the same way then walk away and know that I gave it my all and it’s not for me. I had to get honest with him and most of all, I had to get honest with myself.

Eventually, it got a little easier. My cousin saw my dedication and decided that she was in for the ride (no matter how short it might turn out to be). She began to book amazing chefs and entrepreneurs who are passionate about their businesses and have inspiring stories.

A few weeks ago while celebrating my 100th show and the launch of my new podcast, it hit me, my radio show had morphed into my dream gig! My inner voice had launched me onto a platform where I met and will continue to meet amazing chefs who open their hearts, kitchens, and share their stories with me! The connection and love I experienced with my mama while we cooked that had been lost when she died had resurfaced with my guests, and this is why I loved it so much. This was the connection my soul craved and mourned, to connect with others thru their love of food.

I’m so incredibly grateful that I listened to my inner voice (that occasionally sounds like my husband) and I didn’t quit!

What did I learn?

  1. Joy is my ultimate measurement of success! Life had conditioned me to believe that hard work worth doing earns lots of money. Reframing my ideas about success required a lot of soul searching and unlearning. Loving what I do and helping others are my 2 new measurements, and they make my heart smile.

  2. I’m capable of learning something entirely new at any age! Learning to be a radio host has been like learning to ride a bike. I started on a tricycle, moved to a 2 wheeler with training wheels and eventually I’ll be on a speed racer; be patient, and you will progress.

  1. Amazing people will show up to help you! I continue to be astounded by the support I continue to receive from my husband, family, friends, my radio family, guests, and listeners!

  2. Listen to your inner voice, it’s trying to help you! I love my weekly radio show, and I continue to learn so much and be genuinely inspired by my guests. After most recordings, my face hurts from smiling for 55 minutes!

So remember to say yes to your inner voice! Your inner voice knows what you want most, and through all the noise it will always be there cheering for you if you only stop to listen.

Author(s)

  • Diana Silva

    Author, podcaster, vlogger, Molé Mama Founder

    Molé Mama

    Molé Mama is a San Diego-based author, home chef, vlogger, and podcaster. Diving into her Latina roots, she uses her magical molcajete, and other tools and techniques that make her food taste like grandma used to make back in Mexico.  Her book, Molé Mama; A Memoir of Love, Cooking, and Loss,  shares the stories of how she perfected her beloved mother's recipes. Readers swear that they smell Sonora enchiladas, Spanish rice, mole, and other delicious Mexican food simmering in their kitchens as they read her book.   Molé Mama Recipes YouTube cooking videos and weekly podcast celebrates family recipes, cooking delicious meals at home, and adding love to every recipe. Along with her guest chefs, Molé Mama explores recipes and traditions from around the world and the stories that keep them alive. Most of her podcasts will make you hungry, and you may find yourself dancing in your kitchen to salsa music.  Molé Mama is calling everyone to return to their kitchens and to preserve their living and past ancestors' favorite recipes and stories for future generations. "We need to try to preserve our cultures and not just let those favorite recipes disappear forever. The common thread of every cherished family recipe is that they were homemade with love, and that's the real secret ingredient," says Molé Mama. For many home chefs, cooking is their preferred love language, and that's why we cherish their recipes. Their love has the power to transcend an ordinary recipe into magic! Culinary Training  Diana was just nine years old, and when her culinary training began. Rose was making her legendary flour tortillas, and Diana's big job was to mix the masa. Rose expertly poured water, flour, salt, and a little baking powder in the bowl, and Diana eagerly put her small hands in the bowl and tried to follow her mother's patient instructions on how to mix it. Diana loved the way the sticky dough felt in her little fingers. She was so very proud and excited to help her mama. Diana didn't understand the road she had embarked on that afternoon and the joy she'd experience cooking with her mother for more than 20 years. To watch Molé Mama’s videos, listen to her podcasts and learn more go to: youtube.com/c/molemamarecipes https://www.molemama.com/mole-mama-cooking-with-love-podcast facebook.com/molemama @mole_mama