“Self-discipline is self-love.”
I’m spending a week with a member of my sister tribe. As I continue to remove myself from situations that no longer serve me, I take a moment to acknowledge that my world is unquestionably filled with magic.
I woke up about an hour ago. I’m on the 3rd floor. I woke up to birds singing. The window is open and I’m being greeted with a light breeze. On the roof of the building, a motivational video is playing. A video that was monumental to me in 2014. A video that I listened to every.single.day.
‘Show me your character’
‘Give me your all’
‘Stay strong! Don’t say WHY ME, say TRY ME’
‘Be strong. Be brave. Remain disciplined.’
My peace is not interrupted, it’s enhanced. It’s a message from the Universe. It’s an affirmation.
Over the last few days, I’ve been seeing so many signs of ‘just because you can, doesn’t mean you should’. I’m getting bolder with sharing my real-time location and events. I’ve added my CHICAGO based family back on social media. I’m detached (with love) from essentially everyone. I allowed myself to jump feet first into a handful of emotional tests. I’m learning to trust others with my fullness. My softest points. It’s one thing to share a bunch of words. It’s a game changer to be in the same physical space. My heart knows what’s healthy. As well as my gut. My head is what questions everything. This is where fear resides. My question, in context of trauma, is this fear productive and protecting or is it debilitating me? I LOVE living on the side of possibility. Oftentimes motivated by ‘f*ck it’ or ‘why not’. Continuing to examine whether things are healthy or unhealthy for my exact moment. Looking at the generosity of spirit of self and others. So many broken people who don’t realise the immense beauty in a build. People suffering in cycles. Single disconnected moments rather than flow. WHO am I allowing into my lane? My space? My world? A moment to pause and acknowledge radical truth is imperative. Essential for continued wellness. Essential for growth. Essential for the heart. To be the light.
The video continues to play. I have a fire in my soul. It’s consuming me in the best possible way. A reminder…
‘Look at your last 5 text messages’ are these people throwing logs on your fire or are they extinguishing it? If you are not making someone’s life better, then you are wasting your time…’
Being my own hero.
I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be.
‘When the bullies in life, try to take you out, you stand in your truth. You pick yourself up. You grind. You check your mind. Mindset is everything. This is your moment of truth. A moment that defines resilience. Show the world what you are made of.’ ??❤️