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Yesterday the testimony of Brandt Jean, the brother of Botham Jean, dominated the internet and social media when at the sentencing hearing for his brother’s killer he asked the judge if he could step off the witness stand and give Amber Guyger, his brother’s convicted murderer, a hug. 

The word spoken by the 18-year-old Jean were words of forgiveness and release as throughout his testimony he said,

“I forgive you”, “I love you”, and “I want the best for you”.

A remarkable and beautiful moment that demonstrated forgiveness and one that is surely transformational for Guyger and the young Jean and his family.

The beauty of forgiveness that was on display yesterday in a Dallas courtroom is something I believe we are in desperate need of in our society today. According to a Gallup Survey anger in America is the highest it has been in a decade along with stress and worry.

One only needs to scroll a social media feed or make a wrong turn in traffic to experience the ire that is so quickly released without a thought. And given this current state of angst in America, one has to wonder what would our world look like if instead, we made the choice to forgive. To release, to let go of the perceived wrongs and hurts we have had, if for nothing else than our own well being. 

To be honest, forgiveness has not been something that I have come by easily. For years, I would keep accounts of those who had done me wrong. I held onto hurts and kept grudges which over time, inevitably, turned into bitterness and anger which only have a negative impact on my quality of life.

In one particular session when sitting with my therapist, I began to share with him the anger I felt towards those who hurt me. I detailed for him all of the wrongs that had been done, how angry I was because of it and how I would never forgive those individuals. As after all, that was the least I could do to get back at them for what they had done to me.

After listening to me rail against those who were on my non-forgiveness list, he looked at me and softly said,  “anger and bitterness towards someone is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die.”  

I was stunned. Had he not just heard what I told him? Was he unfamiliar with the idea of hurt and how it worked? Did he really expect me to let those people off the hook for what they had done? He again repeated his phrase and then added, “forgiveness is not for them, it is for you. It is eating you up and you really cannot begin living until you let it go.”

Years later I have taken his advice. I am free! This does not mean that those hurts never occurred, it does not mean that there are not scars but it does mean that I am no longer holding onto bitterness and anger.  This has led to me being able to live a joy-filled life and choose happiness and it is a far better way to live.

In The Book of Forgiving: The Fourfold Path for Healing Ourselves and Our World, Bishop Desmond Tutu writes the following:

“Forgiveness does not relieve someone of responsibility for what they have done. Forgiveness does not erase accountability. It is not about turning a blind eye or even turning the other cheek. It is not about letting someone off the hook or saying it is okay to do something monstrous. Forgiveness is simply about understanding that every one of us is both inherently good and inherently flawed. Within every hopeless situation and every seemingly hopeless person lies the possibility of transformation.”

We will never be able to avoid hurt in our lives and inevitably, as humans, we will experience hurt from those that are close to us. But may we begin the process of transformation within ourselves by doing one thing . . . forgiving. 


  • Carlos Hidalgo

    Entrepreneur, Author, International Speaker & Coach

    Carlos Hidalgo has held senior corporate roles, started his own entrepreneurial ventures, and served in non-profits over the course of his 25-year career. After leading his first company to consecutive Inc 5000 awards, Hidalgo made the decision to leave and start his second company VisumCx, which works with clients from the Fortune 50 to start-ups as a coach and advisor to executives and their teams. In addition to his current role as CEO at VisumCx, Hidalgo and his wife also run a coaching practice to help individuals and couples defined work-life boundaries so they can have better balance and thrive personally and professionally. In addition to his various roles and business pursuits, Hidalgo is the author of Driving Demand, one of the Top 5 Marketing Books of all time according to Book Authority which was published in 2015.  Hidalgo's second book, The UnAmerican Dream, launched in June 2019 and speaks to entrepreneurs and business leaders about finding personal and professional success.