Hello World, My Name is Jesus J Guadarrama Garcia (@worldofjesus)
This is my 3-year burnout story of unconsciously seeking the purest emotion, Love.
Enjoy.
Diagnosed with Major Depression, Chronic Fatigue, Chronic Back-Pain and easy access to the Internet inevitable led to self-medication.
The use of Cannabis, Psychedelics and “Smart-Drugs” provided a temporary sense of relief. Two years of using Modafinil (Provigil) and proper use of LSD (ACID) gifted me with a profound change in mindset.
While googling Modafinil, I came across Dave Asprey & Bulletproof Coffee.
This change everything.
Determined to improve my perceived self-worth, I lost 50lbs, which was publicized by Dave Asprey / “Bulletproof” CEO Personal Facebook Account.
During this time, I was performing as the country’s #1 Mascot, Peter the Anteater!
Despite all this “Success” and “Love” from anyone who knew my story, I was deeply depressed. I was struggling to find happiness.
My first quarter at the University of Irvine was the only time I chose to make Honor roll. Thereafter, I had other priorities.
SHIT GOT REAL
At this moment in time, my little-sister was in a psychiatric center for suicidal behavior. Being raised by an immigrant single mother, I saw it my responsibility to be “On-Call” for any suicidal attempts.
Unbeknownst to my mother, I withdrew from school that quarter to care for my sister and myself. This sort of mental conflict to find love within myself and be there for my family required me to find “True Happiness”.
So… I decided to quit my job at the time of working at “The Happiest Place on Earth” otherwise known as DISNEYLAND.
I left telling myself the following:
“Worldofjesus is and forever will be the result of a young man putting everything on the line to make the world a better place”
My plan did not see the day of light until two and a half years later.
Six months of isolation in my college dorm were occupied with endless consumption and reflection of various Podcast and Books, particularly Napoleons Hill’s “Think & Grow Rich”. At this point, I would like to take the time to remind you that I was majorly depressed and had a lot of Bulletproof Coffee and Modafinil.
In the two years that followed; I become the President of a University’s Media Organization, hosted a Radio-Show, and became a passionate learner on any subject I desired.
Spring of 2017 brought college graduation and unbeknown to many, I was addicted to Adderall after no longer having a Modafinil prescription.
ADDICTION
My body & adrenal glands were incapable of “rest” which left me feeling mentally frustrated and confused. I became rude and short-tempered.
Remember I told you I had a plan?
Well, to accomplish it, I had to realize who I was.
At this time, I was an addict.
I decided to quit my addiction of Adderall and doing everything at an “optimal” level.
I aspire to THRIVE in all aspects of life, all the while knowing that life is a journey and that the best journeys are often those we don’t plan for.
Living in the Moment.
While under the influence of LSD… I understood that I truly need to love and accept.
This deep realization at a profound level, provided me with the confidence to launch a Daily Podcast where I discuss and share my journey towards living a happier and healthier lifestyle.
“Daily Jesus” is the Daily Podcast documenting my journey towards a happier and healthier lifestyle. Tune in & Subscribe!
In the words of Walt Disney
“I just want to leave you with this thought, that it’s just been sort of a dress rehearsal and we’re just getting started. So if any of you start resting on your laurels, I mean just forget it, because…we are just getting started.”
-Walt Disney
If you read this far, I urge to explore deep within your emotions and analyze how they drive your behavior. Thank you for your time.
– Jesus G
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