I’m a busy mom. If you saw my calendar and To-Do List you would tell me that I need a day off. You’re probably right. As a writer/stay-at-home/home schooling Mama, there is no such thing as a day off. One day bleeds into the next, and before I know it, another year has passed. These hectic, demanding days with my kids so often seem overwhelming. There are always more things that need to be done and less time in which to do it all. I feel myself being pulled in a million different directions. More often than not, I go to bed feeling as if I have done a lot of things adequately, but none particularly well.

What is the point of it all? What do the schedules and To-Do lists really accomplish? Why do I so often feel as if I’m just spinning my wheels? Why am I doing it at all? The reason is simple- I do it for my kids. I want to be the kind of mom who is fully connected to my children, no matter how exhausting it is.

In the hectic, hamster wheel of life, there is one very real truth- these are the days I know I’ll wish I had back once they are gone. My kids will only be mine in this way for a small period of time. The day is coming all too quickly when I’ll wish that I could fill up my days with driving them around, teaching them, and learning new things with them.

So I’m trying harder to find the joy inside of the chaos. I’m trying to learn that every exhausting, seemingly imperfect moment is the closest thing to perfection I’m going to get in this life. These are the years that my kids will remember the most. While it may seem like I’m making schedules and To-Do Lists, what I’m really making is memories.

Originally published at heidireneemason.wordpress.com