Sometimes when I meditate, I fully surrender whatever problem/issue/disturbance that is going on in my life at the time over to the universe. In that moment, I believe in the process. I trust the universe will give me what is of my highest good. I believe in the power of prayer and sink into the feeling of grace. My vibes are so high I’m tingling when I get out of meditation. I’m ready to tackle the world and my day with such enthusiasm!  I know that the universe has my back, that everything is working out in my favor and I can easily ride the wave of gratitude.

And then I walk out my front door. 

And the noise of the world gets in the way. All of a sudden I’m out of my lovely cocoon where I feel safe and secure and thrust back into a world where things aren’t going exactly as planned, both in my work life and my home life. My prayers are not happening fast enough! I expect situations to resolve themselves immediately. I prayed, didn’t I? I meditated, didn’t I? Shouldn’t it all be fixed by now and wrapped up nice and tidy with a big red bow?  

When it doesn’t happen, whatever it is I’m obsessing over, guess what I do? I take back control. That’s right… I know longer believe or have faith in the universe. I need to control the outcome and I know best. God forbid I fully surrender to the universe for more than one day!

And that’s when the fun begins. I try to manipulate situations and people to conform to what I want. I try and diagnose the problem and figure out a solution. Then I plan steps on how to get to the end result. Why? Because I know better than the universe. HA!

Has this happened to you before? Do you “Give it to God” only to take it right back when things don’t go exactly as you wished?? 

I think we all have moments like these. We think of ourselves as spiritual, enlightened beings when life is good… when there are no bumps in the road. But what happens when our faith is tested? When life doesn’t look like what we had planned? 

We temporarily don’t believe in the strength of God/the universe/our higher self, which is inside each of us. We throw everything we’ve learned away. Our ego, which is the part of us that feels we are separate from the universe, takes over and wants to prove it knows more. And the battle begins. The push and pull. The give and take. We give it to the universe…then take it back. This goes on and on, like a yo-yo. It’s literally exhausting, to tell you the truth. 

How do we get back to that lovely state of surrender? Where we trust in the intention of prayer? 

I don’t have a clear answer on this one, as I am figuring it all out as I go! However, these are my steps that bring me back. 

1. Recognize when you’ve detoured into fear. You’ll know when this starts happening because your body will start to tense up and your emotions go bonkers. Pay attention to your body and your feelings. They are your spiritual thermometers. Sit with the feelings and allow them to pass through you. Don’t dismiss too quickly. They are just energy after all. 

2. Call a trusted friend. Thank God for the people I have in my life. It’s a very small circle, but they are always there for me and I know I can count on them for trusted counsel. Sometimes we feel we are a burden with our problems, however I’ll ask you this…would you be there for them? Of course you would. Talk it out and allow people to help you. Allow people to heal you.

3. Go back to the meditation pillow and find your light once again. It’s in there. It’s just blocked with all your fears. Know that you’re not alone, we all are struggling with one thing or another. The answer lies in your reconnecting with your light that shines within you. When you come out of your meditation, I suggest you journal. Just free write whatever download you’ve received from your meditation. I promise there will be some mighty good info if you just let the universe guide your pen. Trust the process.

In the end, all we can do is keep surrendering over and over again. Remember to trust the process and just shoot to be the best version of ourselves at any given moment. Leave everyone you meet, both at work and in your home life, better off than before they met you. Then…Let life happen. Trust the process and Let the Sun Shine In.


  • Camille Sacco


    Camille Sacco is a Product Support Specialist for Chase Card Services, as well as a Certified Meditation Instructor, Mindfulness Advocate and Author of two Self Help books: "Hippiebanker: Bringing Peace, Love and Spirituality to the Workplace" and “Firefly Culture: Illuminate Your Workplace by Tuning in to Mindfulness." She leads fun and informative mindful and spiritual meditation classes, as well as crystal bowl sound baths in Central Florida. Her goal is to help people tap into the wisdom of their soul by cultivating daily practices that will inspire confidence in the pursuit of living their lives with a higher purpose. Visit Camille on her website here: