Narcissists often are supported and upheld by the very people they target and abuse, allowing even more free reign for the narcissist to target and abuse the stronger people who see them for what they are: destructive, malformed, temper-tantrum-throwing 5-year-olds in adult’s bodies who seek only to control, manipulate, and suppress — even their own children — in order to feel “good” about themselves.

It’s a miserable existence, and it never ends. It’s an addiction — this sort of behavior has the same effect on them as heroin on heroin addicts. It’s called “seeking narcissistic supply.” When you are abused and gaslighted by these types of people for any length of time, you can become brainwashed into thinking that you are the crazy one — that’s what gaslighting is, and that’s exactly what they want in order to deflect their own wrongdoings — or into thinking that you at least have to tolerate this needlessly vicious cycle that they will perpetuate if they can until you are completely destroyed, or they die.

That was my father to a tee, and my mother and entire family still support and make excuses for the way he treated everyone, and they’ve accepted the destruction he left in his wake for years. They repeat the same abusive patterns he carved out for them long ago. They are beaten down and brainwashed. It’s “their normal,” and if you try to stand outside of that normal, you’re the crazy one. That’s been my entire life with them, and because I’ve still not been able to break many of these behavioral patterns set up for me in my young life, I’m still finding myself unwittingly falling into the role of being the victim of narcissistic abuse, whether I’m the target of bosses, landlords, so-called friends, or love interests. I get angry, I call them out, the abuse gets worse, the brainwashed supporters swarm, I get ganged-up on, and I finally leave the situation but not without feeling beat-up, emotionally drained, and more importantly — completely alone. Again. Having to start over. Again.

Why though? Why is this such a black-eye phenomenon on humanity? Aren’t we all born to enjoy life, to thrive with the skills and talents we are blessed with? To live and let live and support others just doing their own things their own way? That’s what I believe, that’s what I still want after years and years of dealing with these terrible situations, and it’s why Narcissistic Personality Disorder is particularly frustrating and painful for me.

I myself have made excuses or at least tolerated NPD behavior, especially in the case of friends or love interests, because of course I long for true human connection like normal mature people do. But narcissists use that against you in order to manipulate, control, and suppress. They do not have the same authentic desire to connect — they just don’t have it. That’s the scary part, but it’s an unfortunate reality that there are so many wolves in sheep’s clothing out there with NPD, just looking for another fix — that fix being you and me.

So to all those who are still popping the blue pills and supporting and excusing these people — you piss me off just as much as they do. I’ve taken the red pill. My eyes are wide open, I see the NPD phenomenon for what it is, and I do not support, uphold, excuse, or tolerate any of you. I am no longer going to let any of this hold me back. I can’t make this problem go away, but it is my mission to help myself and others confront it, deal with what has happened or is happening, and move past it into the lives we all should be living. 


  • Erin Schultz

    Writer, Editor, Publicist

    Erin Schultz is a writer, editor, and publicist. Armed with a master’s degree in journalism from Columbia University, Erin has two decades of experience working in media of several formats -- from local to national outlets -- expressing her passion for authentic storytelling. She specializes in pitching clients to top-tier and niche publications to be interviewed or to get them in as new contributors, deep study of thought leadership to develop the most compelling pitches and other content, leveraging a huge network of writers and editors, and ghostwriting and editing of articles and press releases.  A recent stint as an editor in the contributed content department at in Manhattan opened her eyes to the thriving entrepreneurial world of CEOs, founders and everyone in between working hard to realize their business dreams. Erin now works remotely on Long Island near New York City. Her writing has been published all over the U.S. (and a few other countries), and her video work has been broadcast on the Discovery Channel. When Erin isn’t polishing content to perfection or making people famous, she enjoys long-distance running, in-depth conversation at Irish Pubs, and standing ovations at karaoke nights. She also is currently working on a book about her past adventures in journalism.