Long before I officially became an international writer, I’ve always thought my opinions would never actually matter, nor did I fully believe in what I did – Although I had passion for writing right from when I was about 6 or 7 years old, but something kept me running away from truly getting my “content” out to my tailored audience, I couldn’t even show my parents, I felt seriously embarrassed by it.
This mediocrity kind of feeling kept me away from recording any form of success for almost all my life (over 20+ years). until I started my first blog in 2012! Although I would read up articles in publications, magazines and get excited and would usually wish my content graces their pages one day, I still was unable to develop the courage to approach anyone to talk about my great ambitions and to share some of my works.
Sometimes, someone would accidentally pick-up what I’ve written and would read, once I spot them, I would rush to snatch it off their hands – I was too ashamed of my work, not that I was terrible at it, but I didn’t have the confidence in myself.
Despite this funny attitude of mine! Anyone who has (or get’s the chance) to read up something I’ve written, would usually say it was awesome.
As time progresses and I grew older, as I grew closer to people, I found that people would prefer to talk to me (sharing) their pains, issues they had or want some sort of advice from me. This made me wonder whether I was good at this at all.
This was even before I ever had the thought of going for a training as a leadership & mindset coach.
Looking back now at how far I’ve come in my career as a writer, I now realize how much damage I’ve done to myself over the years, how many people my work(s) could have helped.
Does this happen to you too? do you shrink up when you are told to talk about what you do or when you’re told to contribute to public matters? do you feel terribly ashamed to get your work out there despite putting so much efforts into it?
The same thing happened to me, and sometimes I still battle this demon (and who knows, I might end up deleting this article before the intended publish date as a result of me thinking its a terribly written article).
But here’s the deal, if you eventually get to read it, “You’re actually doing better than you think you are!” And that 9 words in quotes right there isn’t just to motivate you, but its written from personal experience – The truth is, people do really get value from what you do right now, but you aren’t just seeing it yet. You’ll need to keep at it long before you can see any tangible or visible results.
And if you’re still thinking if this is a good idea to put your work out there, I want to reassure you that your work is valuable to someone so don’t hold back. Sometimes I receive mails that shock me too, mails from people in different countries telling me how my work has shaped them to become someone better.
You’re truly better than you think you are – Don’t bury those talents in mediocrity, it’s worse than failure itself – failure is leverage, don’t deny yourself the right to own the results.
What’s holding you back isn’t a lack of resources, it’s a lack of courage to do what is required of you in order to succeed.