One has to see the limit of thinking, the function of thinking to come to the mystery. Thinking is a device for communication. What happens or what exists is not product of thinking. Put your hand in cold water. There is sensation in the body and brain. Thinking can be used to explain only.
Senses see, touch, listen and so on, breathing in and out is going on, there is memory and imagination and thoughts arising in the mind. Anger, fear, anxiety, happiness are the expressions of Life to keep the mind alive. This is the format of Life. Can one see that there is nothing beyond this?
There is the field of senses (touching, seeing and so on)-bound by time and space and the field of memory and imagination, thinking-fluid, not bound. The field of senses is being renewed every moment. This is total field -the field of senses and the field of memory and imagination.
Then what about ideas about God and so on?
You may name the total field as God but the total field is not an object or something, you can refer. You can not separate yourself from the total field and discuss about the total field. You and the world is a singular process, is the total field.
What ever comes before you including stars, galaxies and so on can not be the source. It is an object. It can have some use, function. To come to the source, the subject (you) is also to be included. To see that subject-object is a singular process rests all seeking.
Everything exists as contrast. Nothing is accomplished as final, dead end. Everything is accomplished against the contrast of desire, uncertainty. The illusion keeps one busy as if some accomplishment, some possession, some relation, some idea, some period of time will relieve one. Even when we get what we want, we remain perturbed as our demand for stable relief is not met. One never questions this demand. One misses the continuous, moment to moment play of desire, uncertainty and certainty, accomplishment-the self-sustained process.
At any point- whether you get what you want or do not get it – new imaginations, new desires, new ideas are continuously flooding your mind. Once you see that the process does not have a satisfactory end-you are on the Original ground.
When you do not like or understand ‘what is happening’ or you face something bizarre-you coin theories to explain it away or adjust that you will know the answers in future through science or economics or tomorrow will be alright and so on. When you are stuck up and want to find the answers now, no explanation religious or scientific is able to assuage the pain of these questions.
Suddenly, you realize that there is no one to answer. You are Alone. From whom you are seeking answers?
Now you will touch the original pain, the original resistance, the original energy on which Life is sustained.
It is not the inability to find the answers but seeing that all answers simply give relief to the mind, cause distraction in seeing ‘what is’ ‘as is’.
The need for answers suddenly drops; you become one with Life as it is.
You touch the unending stream of Life.
The mystery of existence starts unfolding.
No one is essentially unhappy unless one is in immediate physical danger. One is simply feeling psychological discomfort due to something not happening as you wish or due to uncertainty. And psychological comfort-discomfort is the non-stoppable process, the aliveness of the brain.
(And when there is physical danger, there is no time to think, discuss, even about happiness or unhappiness-your whole energy is concentrated in saving yourself.)
We avoid facing fundamental resistance which life presents to us time and again when we encounter discomforting, irritating situations. We are attracted by religious-spiritual and other ideas as if discomfort, irritation, we face is something ‘wrong’, ‘alien’ as if some permanent solution lies somewhere. We are carried away as if someone else (guru and so on) has comfortably solved the enigma of life.
The friction that things are okay, things are not okay sustains the brain.
The friction between this moment and the next gives momentum to life. The friction is unending. When you are relaxed in this moment, whatever be the situation, image for the next moment ( comfortable to you) is automatically created. This is the natural momentum on which brain works. When you are not at rest with this moment, you are trying to fix the next moment to your pattern. You miss the automation. You become busy in fighting an illusory battle.